Tuesday, April 22, 2008
STRESS!Life at JC is terribily stress.i could feel the pressure rite now and even before the official exams starts.which is like 1plus plus month away.OH GOSH.i've jus tooo much to blog about.i believe this will my longest and emo-iest entry ever ever!cos all my thoughts and feelings and stuffs have been stucked in my head for jus toooo long and i'm soo gonna blast them all out rite here rite now.aww man.i flung my 1st ECONS.i flung my 1st CHEM quiz test.and i'm about to flung my 1st PHYSICS test i guess.i've broken my promise.i promised myself that i'm gonna pass all tests and exams even assignments with beautiful flying colours but guess wad.i din do it.i think i suck.seriously.i knew JC life is hard for me yet i'm still acting like some nonchalent kid.MrTong gave us a lecture todae.and i think it's TOTALLY true.we are jus merely socialising in sch.we are not settled down to studying yet.mayb we do need some time.but i've got no time to waste.i gotta pick myself up and move on.i needa get straight into my studies rite now.bcos i'm sooo lagged behind.soooo lagged behind that i find it harder and harder to catch up with my work each and every dae.i was doin the PHYSICS test while asking myself.."did i even put in a single effort into this revision?"this is JC.i'm no longer living in a world of primary or secondary sch.i can no longer do last min revisions.i can no longer get done and over with tests and assignments.bcos i will suffer my ownself.and no matter how tired i am,i gotta brace myself up to finish wad i'm supposed to complete for that nite itself.i'm tired.but i cant complain.i cant even comment.bcos i chose this route so i gotta pick up that courage to finish this race.i've reminded this to myself like a hundred times yet i still dun see myself improving a slightiest bit.i'm screwed.at this stage,i still see myself fooling around like every single day.i still see myself playing and jumping around the house everyday.i'm still not matured enough to stop myself from all these nonsenses.i'm still not doin my work well.i gotta buck up.i seriously gotta step out of my lala land.GROW UP.JC is not a playground for you to fool around.it's the most crucial place which determines the future of ur life.no more sandcastles and slides.so wake up ur mind.start revising rite now.start doing some serious studies rite now.work aside,dere's sth that's been bothering me for quite some time.i dunno wad i shld do to make it better.neither do i noe how to solve this problem.how i wish i could throw this childish stuff into the sea so i could stop emo-ing over it.i hate it.i wan the way it used to be last time.i've been trying hard to get things in place. but one person's effort is definitely not enough.i've been telling myself this mistake is caused by me.i've been blaming myself for almost everything that i could find fault in.but i'm getting sick of straining all these blames.i guess perhaps only 2 or 3 people noe wad i'm talking about.i jus dun wish this thing to spread around.i wan this to get settled a.s.a.p. and i promise i will try hard to ammend it.i'm really sorry if i've done any wrong or made any mistake in between.i'm kinda tired out rite now so i shall stop banging all my nonsenses on this pathetic blog.i wana stay HAPPY and CHEERFUL bcos that's who i am and i wish to be myself everydae.
CHEER UP bcos TMR WILL BE A BETTER DAY!(: -- that's wad Jenboon said.
Jenboon and me at the changi beach(:
