Tuesday, April 22, 2008
STRESS!Life at JC is terribily stress.i could feel the pressure rite now and even before the official exams starts.which is like 1plus plus month away.OH GOSH.i've jus tooo much to blog about.i believe this will my longest and emo-iest entry ever ever!cos all my thoughts and feelings and stuffs have been stucked in my head for jus toooo long and i'm soo gonna blast them all out rite here rite now.aww man.i flung my 1st ECONS.i flung my 1st CHEM quiz test.and i'm about to flung my 1st PHYSICS test i guess.i've broken my promise.i promised myself that i'm gonna pass all tests and exams even assignments with beautiful flying colours but guess wad.i din do it.i think i suck.seriously.i knew JC life is hard for me yet i'm still acting like some nonchalent kid.MrTong gave us a lecture todae.and i think it's TOTALLY true.we are jus merely socialising in sch.we are not settled down to studying yet.mayb we do need some time.but i've got no time to waste.i gotta pick myself up and move on.i needa get straight into my studies rite now.bcos i'm sooo lagged behind.soooo lagged behind that i find it harder and harder to catch up with my work each and every dae.i was doin the PHYSICS test while asking myself.."did i even put in a single effort into this revision?"this is JC.i'm no longer living in a world of primary or secondary sch.i can no longer do last min revisions.i can no longer get done and over with tests and assignments.bcos i will suffer my ownself.and no matter how tired i am,i gotta brace myself up to finish wad i'm supposed to complete for that nite itself.i'm tired.but i cant complain.i cant even comment.bcos i chose this route so i gotta pick up that courage to finish this race.i've reminded this to myself like a hundred times yet i still dun see myself improving a slightiest bit.i'm screwed.at this stage,i still see myself fooling around like every single day.i still see myself playing and jumping around the house everyday.i'm still not matured enough to stop myself from all these nonsenses.i'm still not doin my work well.i gotta buck up.i seriously gotta step out of my lala land.GROW UP.JC is not a playground for you to fool around.it's the most crucial place which determines the future of ur life.no more sandcastles and slides.so wake up ur mind.start revising rite now.start doing some serious studies rite now.work aside,dere's sth that's been bothering me for quite some time.i dunno wad i shld do to make it better.neither do i noe how to solve this problem.how i wish i could throw this childish stuff into the sea so i could stop emo-ing over it.i hate it.i wan the way it used to be last time.i've been trying hard to get things in place. but one person's effort is definitely not enough.i've been telling myself this mistake is caused by me.i've been blaming myself for almost everything that i could find fault in.but i'm getting sick of straining all these blames.i guess perhaps only 2 or 3 people noe wad i'm talking about.i jus dun wish this thing to spread around.i wan this to get settled a.s.a.p. and i promise i will try hard to ammend it.i'm really sorry if i've done any wrong or made any mistake in between.i'm kinda tired out rite now so i shall stop banging all my nonsenses on this pathetic blog.i wana stay HAPPY and CHEERFUL bcos that's who i am and i wish to be myself everydae.
CHEER UP bcos TMR WILL BE A BETTER DAY!(: -- that's wad Jenboon said.
Jenboon and me at the changi beach(:
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
PS:I HATE MY HAIR.awww man.i wan my hair back..i dun like it that short.hais my mum laa!she wanted to trim my hair.i thought she jus wana trim my split ends in the end she cut it sooo short that i almost fainted when i saw myself in the mirror.soo short that i dun even wish to step out of the house.i was soo pissed by the length..in the end i went to the salon downstairs to layer my hair.and guess wad.the hairdresser's such a toot!man i miss my regular hair-stylist.he's the only one that noes howda cut my style.my hair's gone.and my mood is off-ed.ahhhh.pissed pissed pissed.anyw e-learning day's such an i-d-i-o-t day.tons and tons of assignments and quizzes are lined up for us to complete.i din go for training today.mood-less + not feeling well.i din go study wif the rests at the library.moody + pissed.hais.hair hair pretty please grow longer a.s.a.p.i had a bad day.i'm taking one down.i sing a sad song jus to turn it around.awwwwww.i wan hair-extension!!
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
changed my blogskin again.still kinda messy but homework always comes 1st.so i gotta leave my bloggie in a "under-maintainence" mode.hehe.bye.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Sundae's trip to the SAFTI MILITARY SCHOOL was cool.finally got to see my bro.meet all the pro pro officers dere.gosh and i saw the RI girl scholar.i din noe she's an OCT too.sooo impressed.i wana be like her!hahaha.bro's in Siera wing.he said training was kinda tough but they do slack a bit.OCS wasnt wad i expected afterall.and and the prime minister's son is in the delta wing.hahaha!i din noe that!
bro jus marched past but not sure whether i caught the rite person.haha!
this car's kinda cool huh.
this is near the carpark area.my dad went to get the car so i jus took some kuku pics and sceneries.heh.
gosh i love this pic.i took quite a few diff angles b4 i got this.
the sky outside safti military school.haha.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Tmr's sundae!i'm so excited.we'll be visiting my bro for the 1st time after 2weeks.i miss him!i'm jus sooo glad we'll be seeing him tmr.really.i miss all his jokes and craps.feel so empty without him disturbing me.jus 1 more week and he'll be back.home sweet home.yeah!anyw had dinner with 10crazy people todae.it was fun and funny.haha.couldnt stop laughing until i was left all alone on e mrt.cant expect me to laugh alone rite.haha crazy!joshua i'm gonna tell every1 how u talked to ur gf on the phone!anyw.aww man embarrasements always happen on the train.i held on to my bubble tea as i fell asleep and "pooom" goes my bubble tea.i actually dirtied the area under the seats.ahhhhh oh gosh how absurd can i get..
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Todae's such a happening dae!it started out really fine.i took the early bus and reached sch without a drip of perspiration.i usually had to do my 400m sprint every morning.haha.physics lecture was kinda interesting and that Mr Darren's really funny!then followed by physics tutorial.woaah that was when we 1st saw Mr bryan tan burn with rage and shouted at the class.He's kinda unpredictable actually.he has this smiley face and i cant really tell when he's serious.we were playing like crazy infront and i was soo relieved he din pick us up.he came to ask us whether he was too harsh on us when we were doin our chem ws at the cafe area.man he's really too nice!haa after sch ended,we bought cake to celebrate adeline,jenboon,steven,weelin and jiehan's birthdae.and we ended up throwing cream at each other.wahhh!and thanks to steven tan my uniform was soo full of cream!haha.after all the others left sch, jenboon and me when to teckwhye market to buy BUBBLE TEA and TAKO YAKI!haha.we crapped like mad on our way dere.when i was on the bus on my way home a lady smiled to me and offered me the empty seat beside her.but hey!do i look old?awww man!heh.then i saw the cute primary sch girl again when i took a feeder bus home.she was sitting beside me and eating a candy stick.sooo cute that i had e urge to pinch her cheeks!haha!then i smiled at her but i din notice she smiled back.haha yeah that's e end of my story.told u it was happening!isn't it!haha.
[thursday]
wahhh it was such an embarrasing dae!i fell asleep while standing up and leaning on the glass pane on the MRT.ahhhh my head fell so hard that i knocked onto an indian guy's shoulder.oh man i guess the people surrounding me must have laughed soo hard inside!ahhhhhhhhhh no more face!
